You left me without a goodbye!
I didn't ever try to ignore or deny to face her question but I couldn't make her so....alas... She might be hurt by my tepid style of answering few complicated questions but I didn't allow her opportunity to blame me for ignoring or overlooking her questions.
Please please please come back and answer my question last time plzzzzzzzz........ Why did you make a lie before me! What was my guilt?? Why did you cheat my trust and how dare you fuck(Yes, FUCK) my true emotion wantonly! Can you provide any "guarantee card" to me or your family that whatever you did with me, would not be repeated with your new "Chandar"!! Will you...???
Even now I have due sympathy for your physical concern and it will be... but what I had earlier, was more than sympathy. I don't have word but you can define it as a strong emotion and feeling that compelled me to resort rift with my oldest Brother!
One day, my jijajai warned me "wo ladki aapko dhokhaa de rhi hai, uska engagement ho gya hai aur ladka yahi kaa hai...". But..... "Winashkale WipriteBuddhi"! I ignored his advice and even sent an SMS to him... shown my strong trust on you.... What the hell I did....... alaaaaaaasssss!!!
your absence is killing me....
Will you please tell me the secret of the technique, by which you have formatted your memory?? Please.... How did you recycle all the memories, we shared in Lohianagar, Temple, Garden, Road, Streets, Floor, Auto, in Punia.... how did you forget those days we enjoyed in G D College, Co-operative College, Onam residence, Restaurant in Township in your b'day 19th of July.... ... ____ .... How did you forget my first touch?? I couldn't till now!! Cracking Gullak in AIIMS, meeting in Mayur Vihar, GIP Mall of Noida...... how did??? Hey tell me yaar ..... seriously I am loosing my temper....please hath jodta hu yaar bta do n kaise kiya tumne ye sab!!!
What hurts me the most is that I have never got the chance to put my favour or show my integrity, honesty, dedication ...x...y...z... before your family. Yes I don't have better job and it might have been harm the dignity of your family... may be I am not expected to provide you the facility of Tata Safari as "S" husband to you as well.... Yes I accept my defeat that I couldn't get the "deserved job", for which I was given an ultimatum of six months indirectly by your Super Most hon'ble Sri Sri "S" Bhaiya . I request you and your family to come in Delhi and gather information about me.... Listen... I bid, I'll take back all words and apology via this platform, if even a single person raise fingure on my dedication and devotion..... Now I am tired yaar.... How shame it is to me!!!
You left me without a goodbye and never bothered to ask if I'm fine or not, If I'm still alive or not, maybe we're not meant to be together but it's tearing me apart.
Now I feel that my heart is torn apart and I hurt myself a lot trying to put it all back together. My life is empty, my heart is empty and I don't know how to heal I don't know how to move on and let you go. I'm fed up trying over and over and failing. I want my life back ......
I've
tried so many times but can't get her out of my mind cause every single
detail in my daily life reminds me of her. Fighting with my diary
became a routine work for me now. I wish, I could scratch the pages and
got her! I wish...!!!
I didn't ever try to ignore or deny to face her question but I couldn't make her so....alas... She might be hurt by my tepid style of answering few complicated questions but I didn't allow her opportunity to blame me for ignoring or overlooking her questions.
Please please please come back and answer my question last time plzzzzzzzz........ Why did you make a lie before me! What was my guilt?? Why did you cheat my trust and how dare you fuck(Yes, FUCK) my true emotion wantonly! Can you provide any "guarantee card" to me or your family that whatever you did with me, would not be repeated with your new "Chandar"!! Will you...???
Even now I have due sympathy for your physical concern and it will be... but what I had earlier, was more than sympathy. I don't have word but you can define it as a strong emotion and feeling that compelled me to resort rift with my oldest Brother!
One day, my jijajai warned me "wo ladki aapko dhokhaa de rhi hai, uska engagement ho gya hai aur ladka yahi kaa hai...". But..... "Winashkale WipriteBuddhi"! I ignored his advice and even sent an SMS to him... shown my strong trust on you.... What the hell I did....... alaaaaaaasssss!!!
Sometimes
I pretend being assertive and try to move on with my life but in vain.
Now, I always wonder what you are doing? who are with you? Do you miss
me? These questions are killing me..... are you getting me!! Hey.... are
you getting me....I am getting mad.... plzzzzz answer to me plzzz last
time please!! Kill me but please let me have my answer first!! Why did
you breach my trust!! Why why why?? I won't let you live peacefully till
I get my answer!! I will do as possible I can....I will...
your absence is killing me....
Will you please tell me the secret of the technique, by which you have formatted your memory?? Please.... How did you recycle all the memories, we shared in Lohianagar, Temple, Garden, Road, Streets, Floor, Auto, in Punia.... how did you forget those days we enjoyed in G D College, Co-operative College, Onam residence, Restaurant in Township in your b'day 19th of July.... ... ____ .... How did you forget my first touch?? I couldn't till now!! Cracking Gullak in AIIMS, meeting in Mayur Vihar, GIP Mall of Noida...... how did??? Hey tell me yaar ..... seriously I am loosing my temper....please hath jodta hu yaar bta do n kaise kiya tumne ye sab!!!
What hurts me the most is that I have never got the chance to put my favour or show my integrity, honesty, dedication ...x...y...z... before your family. Yes I don't have better job and it might have been harm the dignity of your family... may be I am not expected to provide you the facility of Tata Safari as "S" husband to you as well.... Yes I accept my defeat that I couldn't get the "deserved job", for which I was given an ultimatum of six months indirectly by your Super Most hon'ble Sri Sri "S" Bhaiya . I request you and your family to come in Delhi and gather information about me.... Listen... I bid, I'll take back all words and apology via this platform, if even a single person raise fingure on my dedication and devotion..... Now I am tired yaar.... How shame it is to me!!!
You left me without a goodbye and never bothered to ask if I'm fine or not, If I'm still alive or not, maybe we're not meant to be together but it's tearing me apart.
You and your family will have to pay the cost of my teardrop..... I am alive!
Now I feel that my heart is torn apart and I hurt myself a lot trying to put it all back together. My life is empty, my heart is empty and I don't know how to heal I don't know how to move on and let you go. I'm fed up trying over and over and failing. I want my life back ......
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